random pictures.:)

paulo en i during a vtr.:)

loves it.♥

paulo,me and mimi.:)

ahem ahem.:)) noel and i.♥

xanga is soo retro.

i dont feel xanga or blogging anymOre.so far,im planning to move to another site since my "samiibaby" wutever is starting to make me puke.especially since lhaters nowadays are getting worse.:) im choosing between my multiply blog or in livejournal.oh well,but im gUna stop with this for now.just now.id come back when i feel more like spillin all my misfortunes to everyone.oh well.

*did something super yesterday.someone is soo dead on monday.:)

*someone made me cry too,yesterday.i looove my friends.thank you,thank you for standing up for me.i love you all.:)

*janine's bday celeb todaaaay.ugggghh.soo wasn't able to come.geeky lil byotch.

*sooo much breakups.soo not super.guys are such dickheads.

*so far,haven't failed in any quiz or seatwork or whatever.hhhmm.does math count?

*i so feel multiply.pleae do drop by my site.:)

*i've been eating so much lately.soo not good.

*lovelife:good and bad.hhhhm.meaning?ionoooo.

*school losers are still losers.yea,lil ms.piggy.im refferin to you guys."why din't you told me?..is there any person who are smart there?" go study.love you jans!:)

*i got into the account the losers made.thank you,thank you to my friends.din't erase it yet though.:)

til next tiime.

xoxo

sam

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!¢¾

before anything else,may i just remind you guys that its another new year which obviously means only one thing,time for a change.ohh yes.:) i myself should also change.for the better,of course.shizzle.anyway,goodbye 20o5.it surely was a good one.with all the laughter and tears that it brought us.and hello,2006.let us all make this year worth it by starting to do whats right.naks.

anyhow,last night was the bomb.i could hardly breathe when 12o'clock came.so much fireworks naman kasi.i could tell that people were really excited cause early in the morning plang,its soo ingay na.it was bugging at first.especially since i haven't had any sleep for two straight days na.oww and the party here came along just great.i looove the food by the way.¢¾ ooh no.oww,and thanksto the people who greeted me a happy new year.except for one person.i love you all.:)

anyway,i havent thought of my resolutions yet.i'll think of it as my write my entry nlang and you'll be the first to know about them.aww.

well,it's also bugging that i wasn't able to write any entry for the past days when i said i would write na everyday.its really weird.i find myself sitting infront of the pc,trying to come up with an entry en a lil later,i go balistic just because i haven't got anything to write.very much sorry.im trying this new thing wherein i come up with sensible entries rather than my past ones.also  where i could say something besides from the fact that i make my wonderful(sarcastic) life such a big deal.

anyway..resolutions!!

• stop being self centered.

wudnt it just be great when you'd start thinking of the wellfare of others before yourself?yess.i think so.:)

• try to learn how to save cash.

my mom always hated me whenever she'd find out that i spent so much for just one thing.so,why not try having cash in my wallet for a longer span of time?it could be better.i find it just sweeeet when for once i would be able to buy something out of my own money.well,who could blame me?mom never gave me any of the tf'si got from modelling.

• stop picking fights and make up with my enemies.

that resolution excludes one person though.just because it would be for the better.may i just also share that people agree with me on this.bad influence people are just off limits to me na.i get influenced easily eh.

• try balancing my time and make a schedule.

just so i would be able to put my studies in the right track.and so that i could spend more time with my family na instead of friends.

• study,Study,STUDY!

who wouldn't?im sure it everyone elses resolution.stop with the boys,with the "me time" and try having more on your brain than with the way you look.people don't notice you just because your pretty.what's beauty when you dont have brains?my dad would always tell me that.its annoying actually because he'd always compare me to my two younger sisters who are smarter than me.im used to it na.i can't guarantee i'd be able to cope with math though.its a killer!

• listen to my agents and go on a diet.

shizzz.it's always the first thing they'd say when i open the door to their office "sam..tumaba kaaaa!" aaahhh.i can't take it any longer.although i kno its constructive critisism.its for the better.

• take my bad habits away.

biting nails,staying up late,me time,picking on my lil kido sis,and whatever.no more!atleast i'll try.

• be more religious

who wouldnt want that?like i said in my other entry,God has an important role in my life na.so,try spending more time doing religious things or whatever.and attend by parish involvement for once.dead!haha.:)

anyway,these are all i could think of at the moment.if ever something else would pop out off my head,ima let you guys know first.:)

xoxo

sam

IM BACK!

well,one thing's for sure.you shall expect entries from me everyday again.or atleast until the break is over.anyway,it really got me pissed that i wasn't able to blog in such along time and especially since so much things have happened to me.anyway,it doesn't matter anymore.past is past.

i really find it amazing now that when i read my past entries,instead of feeling hurt or whatever,i started laughing.see what time can do?time does heal the wound.i guess now i could say that all my grief has ended.i realized that longing for the past is such a waste of time and it also wouldn't do you any good.so,why even bother right?

basically now,i found what really matters.God,family,and friends.they really do.it made me realize that no matter what happens,no matter how much you say you hate them at times,they would always still be the first people you'd run to.and it does pay off to spend time with them rather than with your boys. it makes me happy to see that my family and i now get along well.i dont know.its complicated.but it does make me happy.

well,the thing thats been running through my head these past days was usually about how im doing in school.well,ever since i stopped hanging out with this person, things fell into place and i realized how big of a jerk i was to most people.anyway,im sorry.its a good thing actually that im starting to make up for all that i've done.and whats most important is that i think im finally making up for my super low grades.well,i dont know if you'd believe me or what(you'd probably be laughing your butts off),but i usually catch myself reading my books na.which so wasn't me..before.

anyway,love update..i tink i've been making the right decisions na.i mean,i didn't only think of how i'd feel but as how the other would feel as well.now,i don't think that person still realizes how good it was that i decided that we'd settle to just being friends.although it did hurt me in a way to see(or hear) him in such pain.you know who you are.i hope you do realize that you mean so much to me that i dont ever want to hurt you.i wouldnt want our friendship to be ruined just because of this.thats how much i treasure you.and now,it worries me cause it seems like you're dissing me na.it sucks really.and as to this guy that i've been reffering to in my past entries for so many times,i'm so over him.and getting over him made me realize so much things.good ones.

anyway,i just got home from a friend's house in tagaytay.i had to go home cause mom got sick and everyone else is out.my lil bro is in e.k while my other siblings are over at my aunt's house and so is my dad.naks,quality time with mommy dear.kdn.

well,i dont kno what to say anymore.so,il keep it til here first.oww btw,to all those reading my blog and have friendster accounts,please add my joint account together with jonah and prech.email: tripletzmadness@yahoo.com thank you,thank you.

oww,and to the moron who keeps using rein's name..bug off,will you?stop flooding my chatter box with your shit.

xoxo,

sam

things i have learned:

• you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.
• the ache of unfulfilled dreams is the worst of all.
• self pity is a waste of time.
• its taking me a long time to be the person i want to be.
• a person with big dreams is more powerful than the one with all the facts.
• one loss should not make a season.
• you can keep going on after you thought  you can't.
• no one can keep a secret.
• it is never  easy to trust ...
• we are responsible for what we do,no matter how we feel.
• we make our own destinies.
• even the happiest people have down days.
• it's better not to wait for a crisis to discover what's important in your life.
• nothing very good ever lasts forever.
• no man is a match to a womans tears.
• my worst decisions were made when i was mad.
• i should not waste my time worrying about the things i can't change.
• it is never too late to improve yourself.
• i should focus on my dreams instead of my regrets.
• i still have a lot to learn.

anyway,while mom is still allowing me to use my pc,may i just share that i also learned that it is never too easy to trust some of your friends cause you may never know what some of them do behind your backs.i hate it,i hate her.in a blink of an eye,you could do something that would change everything between the two of you.i'm currently thinking if this should really affect our friendship.its just that,what she did is just..unforgivable.gawd,to go out with my ex?it just isn't right.especially since she knows i want him very badly.it just hurts so much.especially when they were sitting right next to me yesterday and she was even wearing his jacket.gawd.i don't know what to do anymore.and now,they're sleeping in one room.sob. everything is just soo wrong..i also told her how i felt,i even cried..what i couldnt really get is why i find it so hard to get mad at her..i wana say shit about her,i wana do so much stuff just so she'd know how i feel..but..i dont know.i love her,but i hate her.nakakainis.sobra.i know i should just let go and let them be..but..it is just soo hard.i hate my life.